Monday, September 19, 2005
A short while of daydream.
I declare Preliminary Examination is over, though it has not, if you get what I mean. The rest of this week shall be rest days for me, no input of stress or whatsoever. So, please censor your speech with me if you are anywhere near mentioning P-R-E-L-I-M-S, this word.
Today, on my journey home, this word "failure" got me into thinking. Sigh, and again, I failed in honouring my words of being salt and light by improving in this Preliminary Examination, considering that it's the last school examination I'll ever take. It's either in my anxiety I want to do well that has gotten me sick, or my body has actually deteriorate THIS much. Anyway, I have planned out out my intensive revision today, after the left over time during Math, which shouldn't be the case. Hehe. The plan should take place next Tuesday, and should helped me accomplished all the revision needed for O level right up till 6th November. :D Ah, sometimes I just need to be hard on myself and imposed some hard-to-achieve rules. It will do me good, anyway.
Another discovery I found out about myself today was that I am mesmerized by army guys who are skinny or good build in their uniform! They look absolutely smart! Yes, I saw Minghui, my Primary School senior on my way home in the train today. Goshhhhh. I just can't help but stare at him from the back after we alighted at Yishun. Ah, not to forget that my Brother looked totally smart in both his uniform! :D This made me want to join Navy so much more! The uniform is so nice and I think the job is challenging. ...ooh...ahh...woah!!!
A dreamer's dream never die, yet I don't want to be just that dreamer who's dream never come true - I want to work towards it! I want to get into Consumer Food Science Course in Temasek Polytechnic! Yet I know it seems like an impossible task to many because of the lousy theory marks I'm scoring now, but it's okay. I will work hard! :D Haha, a silly reason to why I cancel out the idea of aiming for JC is because I don't want to wear uniform anymore. I want to wear pretty clothes everyday and look good, not forgetting creating more shopping opportunities for myself! XD
Now that I mentioned shopping! Today, after lunch with Kaihui, Clarence and Don, we walked around Junction 8 and we gave Seiyu a visit! Both Kaihui and myself were very hyped up when we were at the babies section - they have so many nice clothes and things for the babies, when they hardly can even remember, I supposed. But anyway, those stuffs made Kaihui want to be a Mother soon, and it made me want to shop for many more stuffs when I get married and get pregnant next time! (; ...pretty pretty stuffs!
365days, or even more, to the next time I will get to see a beautiful moon, if I ever get the chance. Sigh, I missed last night's one; my camera wasn't with me. Oh! My white cat knows how to listen to my Dad's command to her returning home(her own cage), in English! Such clever cat I've got.
Today, my thoughts are so random - they come and go without leaving its trail. Yet it is this kind of days do I enjoy life; at least I ponder, I question and I get answer or directions. If not, my life will not find its purpose nor get new insights.
maoed.]
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